I've felt very very unstable today. I go from happy thoughts about the possibility of being pregnant to freaking out about how I'll handle it if I'm not. A good friend told me to just chill out. LOL I tried. I'm feeling a bit more stable, but no quite my 'normal' self. I've felt wonky all day though. Something feels off. Physically, mentally, emotionally, things aren't 'normal'.
I'm not having the belly button pinching anymore, but my ovaries are still occasionally reminding me they are still there! It sometimes will take my breath away! My breasts are more tender today and Hubby swears the areola and nipples are darker. I guess he'd know better than me, I don't spend that much time staring at my breasts! I'm feeling more tired too. And good lord am I eating! I feel like I'm just never full. My sense of smell seems to be picking up too. I kept smelling cigar smoke during lunch today. I also thought I smelled egg rolls, but I couldn't find them. Boy did they smell good too! I wanted an egg roll after that!
This afternoon, I was talking to Hubby about some of my fears. One of them is having twins. I wouldn't even necessarily call it a fear, but maybe more of a thought. I wouldn't mind twins. It would solve one problem of me wanting more than one child and not wanting to go through fertility treatments all over again. Anyway, I was having a moment and asked Hubby OMG, what if we have twins, what are we going to do? His response :well if it happens, it happens. Nothing we can do but love them all.
It made me smile. Its just another reason why I love him. He can talk me down out of a panic in just one statement. It isn't going to matter to him what the outcome is, he is going to love me and our children anyway.
I'm still trying to decide if I'm going to test on Sunday or wait the extra two days....
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